In the next year, I'm going to start off where I left 2009: constantly seeking the Lord and not letting anything get in the way of that.
I look back at the year and I definitely am not the same person I was on January 1, 2009:
My tastes
my desires
my appearance (I wore earrings in the beginning of the year)
my attitudes
and my relationship with God
all changed within this year.
As the year went on, I grew closer and closer to the Lord. Things in my life changed that caused me to live a life more like Christ.
relationships tailed off
new ones started
my desire to serve God increased as the year went on
not being ashamed of my faith
There was a time when I became complacent in my walk with God and because of that, I ended a relationship. I don't ever want to go through that with someone again. I don't want to bring someone's relationship with God down. I don't want someone to put more focus on me than on our Lord.
I really hurt myself when I did that, but I hurt two others in the process: God and the girl I was dating at the time.
I know for sure that won't happen again.
This year I will strive to become more like Christ. This year I'm going to become a man of God. This year I will serve in God's army. This year I'm going to depend and trust more in God. This year I am going to keep my eyes focused on God and not on my surroundings. I have faith that this year, it will happen because I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Songs of the Year: Up and Up - Relient K
Cannons - Phil Wickham
"I'm just trying to be a better version of me for You." [Up and Up - Relient K]
"I'm so unworthy, but still You love me. Forever my heart, will sing of how great You are." [Cannons - Phil Wickham]
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
My Thoughts On Love.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It ALWAYS protects, ALWAYS trusts, ALWAYS hopes, ALWAYS perseveres. [1 Corinthians 13:4-6]
In a sermon I heard a while ago, the pastor referenced 1 Corinthians 13. He said, "Try substituting your name for the word 'love.' Does it work?" When I first heard that, I was floored. I had just gotten out of a relationship and after hearing this, I felt really convicted. I had a desire to change my ways. Change my views on relationships - not only with a girlfriend, but with friends and family as well. Since the summer, I have gone through a lot that has tested my patience, my attitudes, my self-love. And I personally have to say that every time, it has made my desire to change and to love the way that Christ did even greater than before. God is gracious enough to give me these opportunities to redeem myself, to be more like Himself. Even though at times I fail or slip, He's there to pick me up and put me on my feet and tell me to keep going and not look back.
The thing that really hits me hard is the patience factor. Yeah, I want to go jump back into the dating world, but I'm personally not able to substitute my name in for the word 'love.' Yeah I don't like it, but I have to try harder and work at it. It's not going to be easy, but it can be done through the help of God. When and only when He says that I'm ready, then I can jump in, but for now, I have to be patient. I have to be kind. I can't envy, boast, or be proud. I can't be easily angered or selfish. I can't stay mad at someone for hurting me. I have to be rooted in God's Word so much more than I have been. I have to use my time wisely. I have to fully commit to my relationship with God before I can commit to an earthly relationship with someone else. But I do still hope. I still trust. I still persevere.
"It's not so much about finding the right person, it's about being the right person." - Mike Kelsey (8/30/09, 'A Get Together to Tear It Apart' - Frontline Sermon)
In a sermon I heard a while ago, the pastor referenced 1 Corinthians 13. He said, "Try substituting your name for the word 'love.' Does it work?" When I first heard that, I was floored. I had just gotten out of a relationship and after hearing this, I felt really convicted. I had a desire to change my ways. Change my views on relationships - not only with a girlfriend, but with friends and family as well. Since the summer, I have gone through a lot that has tested my patience, my attitudes, my self-love. And I personally have to say that every time, it has made my desire to change and to love the way that Christ did even greater than before. God is gracious enough to give me these opportunities to redeem myself, to be more like Himself. Even though at times I fail or slip, He's there to pick me up and put me on my feet and tell me to keep going and not look back.
The thing that really hits me hard is the patience factor. Yeah, I want to go jump back into the dating world, but I'm personally not able to substitute my name in for the word 'love.' Yeah I don't like it, but I have to try harder and work at it. It's not going to be easy, but it can be done through the help of God. When and only when He says that I'm ready, then I can jump in, but for now, I have to be patient. I have to be kind. I can't envy, boast, or be proud. I can't be easily angered or selfish. I can't stay mad at someone for hurting me. I have to be rooted in God's Word so much more than I have been. I have to use my time wisely. I have to fully commit to my relationship with God before I can commit to an earthly relationship with someone else. But I do still hope. I still trust. I still persevere.
"It's not so much about finding the right person, it's about being the right person." - Mike Kelsey (8/30/09, 'A Get Together to Tear It Apart' - Frontline Sermon)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
BLARGH.
The holiday season is upon us. Tis the start of December. Christmas music all over the airwaves. Decorations coming up. But even with all the fun of the Christmas holidays, there is a catch. EXAMS. I've been in the library every single day this past week and I'm going to try hard to keep it up and stay focused on what needs to be done ATM. Not what will be done.
Lord, keep my mind focused on my studies. With all the free time I have now, I pray that you lead me to use it wisely. Free my mind of any worries, anxieties, and doubts. Father give me the strength to power through these next 3 weeks because I won't be able to go at it alone. Thank you Lord for being beside me all the time. Thank you for loving me even when I fall. Thank you for being there to pick me up again. Thank you. Amen.
I'm ready...
Lord, keep my mind focused on my studies. With all the free time I have now, I pray that you lead me to use it wisely. Free my mind of any worries, anxieties, and doubts. Father give me the strength to power through these next 3 weeks because I won't be able to go at it alone. Thank you Lord for being beside me all the time. Thank you for loving me even when I fall. Thank you for being there to pick me up again. Thank you. Amen.
I'm ready...
I Turn Everything Over - Switchfoot.
I turn everything over.
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Monday found me on my knees again
Breathing You in
To blur the lines that mark where I begin
And where You end
No use in trying to pretend
Come take me again
Cause rumor has it I'm not who I've been
Come define me
What can we do
If the rumors are true?
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
There's nothing left of me to defend
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
The evidence convicts the hollow man
After looking inside
To my dismay I find I'm just one of them
Cause I'm an already but not yet resurrected fallen man
Come break this limbo
And I know You know just who I've been
Come define me
Rumor has it You love me
Rumor has it the world spins upside down
Rumor has it my only hope is You
And the rumors are true
I turn everything over
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Monday found me on my knees again
Breathing You in
To blur the lines that mark where I begin
And where You end
No use in trying to pretend
Come take me again
Cause rumor has it I'm not who I've been
Come define me
What can we do
If the rumors are true?
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
There's nothing left of me to defend
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
The evidence convicts the hollow man
After looking inside
To my dismay I find I'm just one of them
Cause I'm an already but not yet resurrected fallen man
Come break this limbo
And I know You know just who I've been
Come define me
Rumor has it You love me
Rumor has it the world spins upside down
Rumor has it my only hope is You
And the rumors are true
I turn everything over
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Stand For You - Jonny Diaz.
I'll stand for You.
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So long politics it’s time to start being me
Take the chains off my lips it’s time to set my tongue free
Some might just turn their heads but some will raise a fist
And You told me to stand so I won’t back down from this
They say there are no absolutes but are they absolutely sure
In a world that tries to water You down
Where beliefs cannot be spoken too loud
I’ll stand for truth
Where they claim Your way isn’t wide enough
And they do their best just to cover You up
I’ll stand for You
Hello reality it’s time we embrace honesty
Teach me to speak with truth and love and with humility
You made a promise that You’re coming back to earth
So how selfish am I if I don’t go tell the world
They say just be sincere but could they all just be sincerely wrong
In a world that tries to water You down
Where beliefs cannot be spoken too loud
I’ll stand for truth
Where they claim Your way isn’t wide enough
And they do their best just to cover You up
I’ll stand for You
They might remove Your name from money
But You own it all the same
They kicked You out of school that’s funny
Cause how could You go away
In a land that’s built upon Your word
It’s amazing You’ve been banned
To think that we control You is absurd
So for truth I’m here to stand
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So long politics it’s time to start being me
Take the chains off my lips it’s time to set my tongue free
Some might just turn their heads but some will raise a fist
And You told me to stand so I won’t back down from this
They say there are no absolutes but are they absolutely sure
In a world that tries to water You down
Where beliefs cannot be spoken too loud
I’ll stand for truth
Where they claim Your way isn’t wide enough
And they do their best just to cover You up
I’ll stand for You
Hello reality it’s time we embrace honesty
Teach me to speak with truth and love and with humility
You made a promise that You’re coming back to earth
So how selfish am I if I don’t go tell the world
They say just be sincere but could they all just be sincerely wrong
In a world that tries to water You down
Where beliefs cannot be spoken too loud
I’ll stand for truth
Where they claim Your way isn’t wide enough
And they do their best just to cover You up
I’ll stand for You
They might remove Your name from money
But You own it all the same
They kicked You out of school that’s funny
Cause how could You go away
In a land that’s built upon Your word
It’s amazing You’ve been banned
To think that we control You is absurd
So for truth I’m here to stand
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Don't Get Comfortable - Brandon Heath.
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Comfortable, don't get comfortable
I am going to move this mountain
Then I'm going to move you in
Yesterday, this is not yesterday
You were standing on my shoulders
Now you're standing on the edge
You were looking for a sign all this time
I am gonna show you what I mean
I am gonna love like you've never seen
You are gonna live like you used to dream
This is your new song
So afraid, that you don't have to be afraid
Even if you make mistakes
You know that I'll remain
You been looking for a sign all this time
If you seek you find me anytime
I am gonna show you what I mean
I am gonna love like you've never seen
You are gonna live like you used to dream
This is your new song
Can you feel the call of love
Is it moving you to be a child of God of love
Is it reaching you
It's everywhere the call of love
I just wanna show you what I mean
I just wanna love like you've never seen
Do you wanna live like you used to dream
Then I've got a song for you
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Wait.
The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the person who seeks Him. [Lamentations 3:25 NASB]
Wait for the Lord. Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. [Psalm 27:14]
Wait for the Lord. Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. [Psalm 27:14]
My Testimony.
So on Thursday night, I shared my testimony at the Campus For Christ weekly meeting. Boy was I nervous. I don't like public speaking, but when I talk about something that really interests me, it's not so bad. So I typed it up the night before and here it is:
Being a Christian has definitely changed my life in many ways. But I didn't grow up as one. I grew up in the Catholic faith and I hated going to church. I only went because my mom told me to and I didn't want to upset her. Years passed and I didn't know what has going on.
It wasn't until my senior year of high school where things started to hit me. I battled depression and suicide. I hung out with the wrong people - did drugs, got drunk. I even skipped school to do those things. Those things were consuming my life. My sister had sat me down one night and talked to me about the Bible. She told me about God's love and His desire for a relationship with us and Christ's whole purpose on earth. I was then I had accepted Him into my life. I didn't know what that meant at the time, so I just kept on going with my life. So at this time I had started going to a bible-believing church where I started meeting new people, but I was still living a life with drugs and alcohol.
It wasn't until one Sunday that I attended, one of the leaders sat me down and asked me if I knew if I was going to heaven or not. I didn't have an answer. So after he spoke to me about Christ's purpose, it was then I realized I wanted to change things in my life. I wanted to read my Bible more and I even put verses on my wall to help me memorize them. I had quit doing drugs, but still drank alcohol on occasion.
So then college started and I started dating this other girl from my church and I had been attending C4C on a regular basis - getting involved. She was really devoted to God and I had learned so much through her. It was she who taught me about a personal relationship with God. We went through struggles as a couple staying pure and I had some internal struggles that I had to deal with as well. C4C also played a big part in keeping me grounded in the faith by studying the Bible with others regularly and sharing my faith with others as well. I had even started volunteering in the youth ministry at my church and I always find the chance to do so whenever I'm home.
I know I'm far from perfect. But the trials and the people that God placed in my life helped shaped me to be the person I am today. With each coming day, I feel like I'm inching closer to being more and more like Jesus Christ. Being a Christian isn't easy, but if you have your faith in Him, awesome things will happen. This verse has been the foundation of my growth. One of my favorites!
I can do everything through Him who gives me strength [Philippians 4:13]
With Him anything and everything is possible --> Matthew 19:26
Yeah...I know that was two verses.
Being a Christian has definitely changed my life in many ways. But I didn't grow up as one. I grew up in the Catholic faith and I hated going to church. I only went because my mom told me to and I didn't want to upset her. Years passed and I didn't know what has going on.
It wasn't until my senior year of high school where things started to hit me. I battled depression and suicide. I hung out with the wrong people - did drugs, got drunk. I even skipped school to do those things. Those things were consuming my life. My sister had sat me down one night and talked to me about the Bible. She told me about God's love and His desire for a relationship with us and Christ's whole purpose on earth. I was then I had accepted Him into my life. I didn't know what that meant at the time, so I just kept on going with my life. So at this time I had started going to a bible-believing church where I started meeting new people, but I was still living a life with drugs and alcohol.
It wasn't until one Sunday that I attended, one of the leaders sat me down and asked me if I knew if I was going to heaven or not. I didn't have an answer. So after he spoke to me about Christ's purpose, it was then I realized I wanted to change things in my life. I wanted to read my Bible more and I even put verses on my wall to help me memorize them. I had quit doing drugs, but still drank alcohol on occasion.
So then college started and I started dating this other girl from my church and I had been attending C4C on a regular basis - getting involved. She was really devoted to God and I had learned so much through her. It was she who taught me about a personal relationship with God. We went through struggles as a couple staying pure and I had some internal struggles that I had to deal with as well. C4C also played a big part in keeping me grounded in the faith by studying the Bible with others regularly and sharing my faith with others as well. I had even started volunteering in the youth ministry at my church and I always find the chance to do so whenever I'm home.
I know I'm far from perfect. But the trials and the people that God placed in my life helped shaped me to be the person I am today. With each coming day, I feel like I'm inching closer to being more and more like Jesus Christ. Being a Christian isn't easy, but if you have your faith in Him, awesome things will happen. This verse has been the foundation of my growth. One of my favorites!
I can do everything through Him who gives me strength [Philippians 4:13]
With Him anything and everything is possible --> Matthew 19:26
Yeah...I know that was two verses.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Never Be Ready - Mat Kearney.
Go out and take a step of faith today.
Remember: God is always with you and His strength will power through things that you've never experienced or things you are afraid to do. Trust Him.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Psalm 56:4, 11
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Mat Kearney - Never Be Ready
we got our feet on the wire
talking ’bout flying
maybe we’re diving in over our heads
scared of what i’m feeling
staring at the celing
here tonight
come on and lay down these arms
all our best defenses
we’re taking our chances here on the run
if fear is an anchor
then time is a stranger
love isn’t borrowed
we aren’t promised tomorrow
we’ll never be ready
if we keep waiting
for the perfect time to come
hold me steady
we’ll never be ready
oh oh oh oh oh
when we don’t know, though we can’t see
just walk on down this road with me
hold me steady
we’ll never be ready
you’re ok here with me
here in the silence
with all of the violence
crashing around
saying we can’t go
saying we don’t know
this road that is narrow
is the one we should follow
steady my hands this one could turn around
steady my heart it’s beating faster
steady my hands this one could turn around
steady my heart it’s beating faster, beating faster now
hold me steady we’ll never be ready
Remember: God is always with you and His strength will power through things that you've never experienced or things you are afraid to do. Trust Him.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Psalm 56:4, 11
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Mat Kearney - Never Be Ready
we got our feet on the wire
talking ’bout flying
maybe we’re diving in over our heads
scared of what i’m feeling
staring at the celing
here tonight
come on and lay down these arms
all our best defenses
we’re taking our chances here on the run
if fear is an anchor
then time is a stranger
love isn’t borrowed
we aren’t promised tomorrow
we’ll never be ready
if we keep waiting
for the perfect time to come
hold me steady
we’ll never be ready
oh oh oh oh oh
when we don’t know, though we can’t see
just walk on down this road with me
hold me steady
we’ll never be ready
you’re ok here with me
here in the silence
with all of the violence
crashing around
saying we can’t go
saying we don’t know
this road that is narrow
is the one we should follow
steady my hands this one could turn around
steady my heart it’s beating faster
steady my hands this one could turn around
steady my heart it’s beating faster, beating faster now
hold me steady we’ll never be ready
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Steady Now - Brandon Heath.
There's an air everywhere
Of inconsideration and despair
I don't consider you
And you don't consider me
And it's well understood
We don't care
You know we don't have to wait until the end of the night
Just to say that something's wrong and maybe nobody's right
We're all victims in a battle
We never had to fight
It's ok, it's alright
Steady now
We're in this thing together
We're in this together
I regret that I forget
Confessions always seem to stay unsaid
And maybe I worry that you'll forsake me
Use my shame as a weapon
And go on and break me
You know we don't have to wait until the end of the night
Just to say that something's wrong and maybe nobody's right
We're all victims in a battle
We never had to fight
It's ok, it's alright
Steady now
We're in this together
Cause I want to take the time to say
I'm sorry I haven't loved you the way I should
Do you think that you could forgive me
Just try to hear me
I need you with me now
You know we don't have to wait until the end of the night
Just to say that something's wrong and maybe nobody's right
We're all victims in a battle
We never had to fight
It's ok, it's alright
Steady now
We're in this together
Of inconsideration and despair
I don't consider you
And you don't consider me
And it's well understood
We don't care
You know we don't have to wait until the end of the night
Just to say that something's wrong and maybe nobody's right
We're all victims in a battle
We never had to fight
It's ok, it's alright
Steady now
We're in this thing together
We're in this together
I regret that I forget
Confessions always seem to stay unsaid
And maybe I worry that you'll forsake me
Use my shame as a weapon
And go on and break me
You know we don't have to wait until the end of the night
Just to say that something's wrong and maybe nobody's right
We're all victims in a battle
We never had to fight
It's ok, it's alright
Steady now
We're in this together
Cause I want to take the time to say
I'm sorry I haven't loved you the way I should
Do you think that you could forgive me
Just try to hear me
I need you with me now
You know we don't have to wait until the end of the night
Just to say that something's wrong and maybe nobody's right
We're all victims in a battle
We never had to fight
It's ok, it's alright
Steady now
We're in this together
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Ephesians 4:29.
"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."
So this verse really convicted me the other day. I really need to shut my mouth and think before I speak. I keep hurting others with the words that I say and at times I don't even know it. I think that they are just plain jokes, but they are indeed hurtful. This needs to stop.
Father, please let the words that come out of my mouth glorify You. I don't want to hurt others with what I say. Take hold of my tongue and give me the strength to hold back what doesn't need to be said. Thank You Father for loving me even when I hurt others. I'm sorry that I do this and I ask You that You help me and be my strength. I love You. Amen
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Terror Maze.
So I was talking to a good friend earlier tonight about the annual event that was held at the youth group at my church. Terror maze. They pretty much took over the whole church and transformed it to a scary, halloweenish maze with a bunch of activities for the kids to play around in. It's our church's version of celebrating halloween - what better way to present the Gospel at the end of the maze. She told me that 1700 kids came and went through the maze, but the number that put a big grin on my face was 600. 600 kids took Christ into their lives for the 1st time or made recommitments to God in those 2 nights (Wednesday and Friday).
The time I spent while I was back home for fall break was mostly at my church. I was there 5 out of the 10 days I was at home. I helped build the terror maze and I wouldn't trade the time I spent at home for anything else. My hard work setting up and doing MAN work (haha) was worth the effort and was for something amazing. Even though I was a little sad that I wasn't there for the maze itself, I was there in spirit and I gave my time to the Lord for His glory.
...I think I also wrote my name on one of the foam boards.
Praise God for what He's doing at my church and I'm so blessed to be a part of it.
These kids never cease to amaze me.
I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent. [Luke 15:7]
The time I spent while I was back home for fall break was mostly at my church. I was there 5 out of the 10 days I was at home. I helped build the terror maze and I wouldn't trade the time I spent at home for anything else. My hard work setting up and doing MAN work (haha) was worth the effort and was for something amazing. Even though I was a little sad that I wasn't there for the maze itself, I was there in spirit and I gave my time to the Lord for His glory.
...I think I also wrote my name on one of the foam boards.
Praise God for what He's doing at my church and I'm so blessed to be a part of it.
These kids never cease to amaze me.
I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent. [Luke 15:7]
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Bring the Rain - MercyMe.
I've been feeling very discouraged today. I feel like my day is getting worse and worse by the minute. But I listened to this song last night that a friend sent me. It's about experiencing trials and hardships, yet still being able to praise God for everything. Nothing can ever make me stop praising the Lord for what he has done in my life. Through Jesus Christ, I so much better even though the day is getting worse as we speak. Through trials I've gone so much closer to God throughout these past 5 or so months. If I hadn't experienced those things, I wouldn't be as strong in my faith as I am now.
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MercyMe - Bring the Rain
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
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MercyMe - Bring the Rain
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Unanswered Prayers - Garth Brooks.
So I'm not the biggest fan of country music, but I enjoy it every once in a while (especially Taylor Swift haha). So in my devotional, the author was talking about praying about things that are according to the will of God. He referenced one of the lines in this song "Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers." Something that is very hard to do because sometimes the things we want aren't according to God's will. Very hard for me because I've had to come across this many times in the past couple of months. It was a very convicting devotional and song too. I don't have a link to the song on YouTube but here's an imeem link if you want to listen to it: http://www.imeem.com/people/rxoqI/music/qPtaWIWb/garth-brooks-unanswered-prayers/
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Garth Brooks - Unanswered Prayers
Just the other night at a hometown football game
My wife and I ran into my old high school flame
And as I introduced them the past came back to me
And I couldn't help but think of the way things used to be
She was the one that I'd wanted for all times
And each night I'd spend prayin' that God would make her mine
And if he'd only grant me this wish I wished back then
I'd never ask for anything again
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
She wasn't quite the angel that I remembered in my dreams
And I could tell that time had changed me
In her eyes too it seemed
We tried to talk about the old days
There wasn't much we could recall
I guess the Lord knows what he's doin' after all
And as she walked away and I looked at my wife
And then and there I thanked the good Lord
For the gifts in my life
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he may not answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
Some of God's greatest gifts are all too often unanswered...
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
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Garth Brooks - Unanswered Prayers
Just the other night at a hometown football game
My wife and I ran into my old high school flame
And as I introduced them the past came back to me
And I couldn't help but think of the way things used to be
She was the one that I'd wanted for all times
And each night I'd spend prayin' that God would make her mine
And if he'd only grant me this wish I wished back then
I'd never ask for anything again
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
She wasn't quite the angel that I remembered in my dreams
And I could tell that time had changed me
In her eyes too it seemed
We tried to talk about the old days
There wasn't much we could recall
I guess the Lord knows what he's doin' after all
And as she walked away and I looked at my wife
And then and there I thanked the good Lord
For the gifts in my life
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he may not answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
Some of God's greatest gifts are all too often unanswered...
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
Friday, October 23, 2009
O Praise Him (All This For A King) - David Crowder*Band.
David Crowder*Band - O Praise Him (All This For A King)
Turn your ear to heaven and hear the noise inside
The sound of angels' awe
The sound of angel's songs
And all this for a King
We could join and sing
All to Christ the King
How constant, how divine
This song of ours will rise
Oh, how constant, how divine
This love of ours will rise, will rise
O praise Him
O praise Him
He is holy
He is holy, yeah
Turn your gaze to heaven and raise a joyous noise
The sound of salvation comes
The sound of rescued ones
And all this for a King
Angels join to sing
All for Christ our King
Oh la la la la la la
Oh la la la la la la
Oh la la la la la la la la la
How infinite and sweet
This love, so rescuing
Oh, how infinitely sweet
This great love that has redeemed
As one, we sing
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
He is holy
He is holy, yeah
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I love this song!
Prayer. (10.23.09)
Father, I feel like with every word that I say, I'm digging myself into a deeper and deeper hole. Grant me the willingness to control that. Keep hold of my tongue and make whatever I say glorify You. I don't want others to feel this way because of the words I'm saying. Why can't I be the "quiet kid" again? I struggle time and time again, and at times I feel broken. But You are always there to pick up the pieces and clean up the mess on what is called "my life." Thank You for doing that. I'm learning more and more about what it means to be "caught up in Your grace." Thank You so much. I love You.
"Rid me of myself, I belong to You. Oh lead me...lead me to the cross."
Amen.
"Rid me of myself, I belong to You. Oh lead me...lead me to the cross."
Amen.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Sweet Tweets. (10.19.09)
"I don't follow my 'instinct' because my 'in' stinks" - Tedashii via Lecrae
"When God says 'don't' - trust Him because what he's really saying is 'don't hurt yourself.'" - James MacDonald
"sometimes I feel like I know nothing about how to really follow Jesus. So humbling. Grace is so overwhelming." - Mike Kelsey
"2 often we pray, forget what we prayed 4, then fail 2 give God credit because we forgot what we asked 4 in the 1st place." - Mark Batterson
"never put a period where God puts a comma." - Mark Batterson
"You haven't really trusted God until you've attempted something that you cannot do in your own strength." - Rick Warren
Definitely made me look inward
Follow them:
http://twitter.com/Tedashii
http://twitter.com/Lecrae
http://twitter.com/JamesSMacDonald
http://twitter.com/mikekelsey
http://twitter.com/MarkBatterson
http://twitter.com/RickWarren
"When God says 'don't' - trust Him because what he's really saying is 'don't hurt yourself.'" - James MacDonald
"sometimes I feel like I know nothing about how to really follow Jesus. So humbling. Grace is so overwhelming." - Mike Kelsey
"2 often we pray, forget what we prayed 4, then fail 2 give God credit because we forgot what we asked 4 in the 1st place." - Mark Batterson
"never put a period where God puts a comma." - Mark Batterson
"You haven't really trusted God until you've attempted something that you cannot do in your own strength." - Rick Warren
Definitely made me look inward
Follow them:
http://twitter.com/Tedashii
http://twitter.com/Lecrae
http://twitter.com/JamesSMacDonald
http://twitter.com/mikekelsey
http://twitter.com/MarkBatterson
http://twitter.com/RickWarren
Why I Am The Way I Am.
If any of you guys really know me, you would know that I beat myself up a lot when I mess up. Because of that I strive so hard to become more like Christ. I hate feeling that way. But I can never attain that perfect awesomeness (yes, that is in fact a word) that is Jesus. I am human and I mess up. The cool thing about His grace - whenever you do slip up (hopefully you try your best not to) God is forgiving. You wanna know why? He loves you. Each and every one of us the same. No matter what you've done, good or bad. Whenever you fall down, just get back up on that horse that is your life and strive to become better.
He (God) loves you yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahhhhh
(I was listening to The Beatles today and "She Loves You" has been stuck in my head)
He (God) loves you yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahhhhh
(I was listening to The Beatles today and "She Loves You" has been stuck in my head)
Friday, October 16, 2009
Leadership and Me.
So I may never be the leader that people want or expect me to be. I know I will be one in God's eyes in His own time. Philippians 1:6. I have to trust in the Lord and do everything for Him fully from the heart. That's something I've been keeping hold of for the past 3 months. I've found that trusting in God is very beneficial and He alone is satisfying.
Verses to meditate on: Proverbs 3:5-6, Philippians 1:6, Philippians 4:13
Being a successful leader shouldn't based on what you do or what you've done. I see it to be based on how you do it (where are your motives?). And I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
But,
It's not up to you to tell me that I'm not a leader.
I'm not going to be a leader to try and prove you wrong.
That itself is wrong.
God chose me to lead and I will fulfill His commands, not yours.
He's the judge of me, not you. I could care less what you think of me.
He's in control of my life, not you.
If there is a chance that you do read this (I highly doubt that), I hope you're happy where you're at.
Just know that you've hurt me.
But I forgive you.
I love you.
Not so sure that you feel the same way.
Remember what you told me before: there is no fear in love. [1 John 4:18]
I'm no longer scared and running.
I'm striving to be more like Christ and the person God made me to be.
If you can't see that, then oh well.
I'm not perfect.
I will never be.
I'm gonna slip.
I'm gonna mess up.
He is my strength, when I fail. [Psalm 73:26]
I'll always be here whenever you're ready.
It's hard to believe that it could happen.
Where's your faith?
He is my rock, and I will not be moved.
I'm not scared.
I'm hopeful.
Verses to meditate on: Proverbs 3:5-6, Philippians 1:6, Philippians 4:13
Being a successful leader shouldn't based on what you do or what you've done. I see it to be based on how you do it (where are your motives?). And I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
But,
It's not up to you to tell me that I'm not a leader.
I'm not going to be a leader to try and prove you wrong.
That itself is wrong.
God chose me to lead and I will fulfill His commands, not yours.
He's the judge of me, not you. I could care less what you think of me.
He's in control of my life, not you.
If there is a chance that you do read this (I highly doubt that), I hope you're happy where you're at.
Just know that you've hurt me.
But I forgive you.
I love you.
Not so sure that you feel the same way.
Remember what you told me before: there is no fear in love. [1 John 4:18]
I'm no longer scared and running.
I'm striving to be more like Christ and the person God made me to be.
If you can't see that, then oh well.
I'm not perfect.
I will never be.
I'm gonna slip.
I'm gonna mess up.
He is my strength, when I fail. [Psalm 73:26]
I'll always be here whenever you're ready.
It's hard to believe that it could happen.
Where's your faith?
He is my rock, and I will not be moved.
I'm not scared.
I'm hopeful.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
A New Toy.
I have recently discovered a new toy to use while doing my blogging. During my time of doing absolutely nothing during my fall break, I finally found the RefTagger tool. Whenever you place your mouse over a Bible verse on my blog (hopefully it works for the old posts) you will be able to see the verse instead of having to flip through your Bible or typing in Biblegateway.com or something. I'm way to excited for this.
Here's an example of a couple of favorite verses:
Philippians 4:13
Romans 8:28
Proverbs 3:5-6
John 3:16
1 Corinthians 2:9
I LOVE IT!!!!
EDIT: It does work for the old posts!!!!! SO AWESOME!!!
Here's an example of a couple of favorite verses:
Philippians 4:13
Romans 8:28
Proverbs 3:5-6
John 3:16
1 Corinthians 2:9
I LOVE IT!!!!
EDIT: It does work for the old posts!!!!! SO AWESOME!!!
Monday, October 5, 2009
Follow You - Leeland.
I haven't been blogging lately, but I will start again once I crank out these two midterms on Wednesday. Yesterday, I got back from a retreat (Summit) with the Christian group I joined on campus (Campus For Christ, if you must know it is the Canadian branch of Campus Crusade For Christ). Anyways, I was really convicted over the weekend to not be scared to talk to others about the gospel. God was really working in my heart to talk to my closest friends back home. With that, all the things that are happening the South Pacific, my hearts are really going out to them and I can't wait to visit my relatives next summer. But I'm posting this song that is close to my heart because it talks about the poor and the needy that need help around the world. The victims of the typhoon, earthquake, and the tsunami aren't the only people in the world being affected with not only poverty, but the message of Jesus Christ. I'm hoping to go on the missions trip to the Dominican Republic set up by the youth group at my church next summer. God wants to use me and I will let him have His way.
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Leeland featuring Brandon Heath - Follow You
You lived among the least of these
The weary and the weak
And it would be a tragedy for me to turn away.
All my needs You have supplied.
When I was dead You gave me life.
How could I not give it away so freely?
And I'll follow You into the homes that are broken.
Follow You into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy God.
Follow You into the World.
Use my hands, use my feet
To make Your kingdom come
Through the corners of the earth
Until Your work is done
'Cause Faith without works is dead
And on the cross Your blood was she'd
So how could I not give it away so freely?
And I'll follow You into the homes that are broken.
Follow You into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy God.
Follow You into the World.
I give all myself.
I give all myself
I give all myself... to You.
And I give all myself.
Yes, I give all myself.
And I give all myself... to You.
And I'll follow You into the homes that are broken
Follow You into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy God.
Follow You into the World.
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This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. [1 John 3:16]
Expect great things from God; attempt great things for God. - William Carey
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Leeland featuring Brandon Heath - Follow You
You lived among the least of these
The weary and the weak
And it would be a tragedy for me to turn away.
All my needs You have supplied.
When I was dead You gave me life.
How could I not give it away so freely?
And I'll follow You into the homes that are broken.
Follow You into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy God.
Follow You into the World.
Use my hands, use my feet
To make Your kingdom come
Through the corners of the earth
Until Your work is done
'Cause Faith without works is dead
And on the cross Your blood was she'd
So how could I not give it away so freely?
And I'll follow You into the homes that are broken.
Follow You into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy God.
Follow You into the World.
I give all myself.
I give all myself
I give all myself... to You.
And I give all myself.
Yes, I give all myself.
And I give all myself... to You.
And I'll follow You into the homes that are broken
Follow You into the world.
Meet the needs for the poor and the needy God.
Follow You into the World.
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This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. [1 John 3:16]
Expect great things from God; attempt great things for God. - William Carey
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
My Dream.
This morning, I woke up from a dream that made me think about something. In my dream I was supposed to go up in front of THOUSANDS of people to speak. So a guy came up to me before I went up and asked, "So what verse are you going to tell these people?" I was like, "Verse? I'm supposed to say a verse?" He says, "Yeah, isn't that what you're here for? So what is it then? If you had to pick one verse to tell people (some believers and non-believers) what would it be?" I never answered him because I kept thinking about what to say. So many thoughts and verses ran through my head. I didn't know what to say. Then I woke up. When I awoke, the verse suddenly popped into my head. It's a verse that everyone knows, but in my eyes is THE most powerful in the Bible. It clearly shows God's love and sums up the gospel in one small verse. John 3:16.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
The devil even uses Scripture to overlook things. A while ago, one of my leaders and accountability partners asked me this question. "If you had one verse to preach the gospel, what would it be?" I flipped and I flipped. And after a good 5 minutes of searching, I was lost. He then gave me a hint because my mind was literally blank. He said, "Everyone knows this one." It was then I remembered John 3:16. We can memorize and practice so much Scripture, but the basis for the gospel and God's presence unto man can be overlooked because it's a verse in the back of your head that you don't often think about because of other things going on in your life that you attribute other verses to. I admit that I do this a lot, but this dream really awoke me to a new mindset and new beginnings. Life life the way God intended it to be: Telling people about the gospel and THE ONLY way to get into heaven.
"Jesus answered, 'I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" [John 14:6]
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
The devil even uses Scripture to overlook things. A while ago, one of my leaders and accountability partners asked me this question. "If you had one verse to preach the gospel, what would it be?" I flipped and I flipped. And after a good 5 minutes of searching, I was lost. He then gave me a hint because my mind was literally blank. He said, "Everyone knows this one." It was then I remembered John 3:16. We can memorize and practice so much Scripture, but the basis for the gospel and God's presence unto man can be overlooked because it's a verse in the back of your head that you don't often think about because of other things going on in your life that you attribute other verses to. I admit that I do this a lot, but this dream really awoke me to a new mindset and new beginnings. Life life the way God intended it to be: Telling people about the gospel and THE ONLY way to get into heaven.
"Jesus answered, 'I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" [John 14:6]
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
The One - Phat Chance.
My buddy Simon sent me the lyrics to this song and I was moved by it. I haven't seen the subject of purity in relationships expressed in music before. Purity is something that is dear to my heart because I've had to deal with instances in a past relationship where I wasn't pure at all and I was just dragging the both of us down in our relationship with God. I can't stress enough how important it is to not only have a pure relationship with someone, but also in the way that we think.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. [Philippians 4:8]
Unfortunately I don't have a copy of this song, but from the little snippet I heard, it sounded pretty good. Here goes:
I know I've never met you, but I know
Someday you'll be by my side
And we will share what the Lord's prepared,
And we'll have nothing to hide
I will never give myself away
I'll be right here waiting
Holding on for you
Wherever you are, under these stars
You know tonight I'm praying
For a love that's pure, you can be sure
That love is worth the waiting
You'll be the one sent from above
'Till then I'll be waiting, praying
Knowing that you are the one
I know I've never met you, but I know
You're a promise I can hold on to
We belong, so please be strong
I'm waiting for you, too
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Backstory on the band: http://www.crossrhythms.co.uk/articles/music/Phat_Chance_Bryan_Nance_talks_about_purity_in_pop/33019/p1/
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. [Philippians 4:8]
Unfortunately I don't have a copy of this song, but from the little snippet I heard, it sounded pretty good. Here goes:
I know I've never met you, but I know
Someday you'll be by my side
And we will share what the Lord's prepared,
And we'll have nothing to hide
I will never give myself away
I'll be right here waiting
Holding on for you
Wherever you are, under these stars
You know tonight I'm praying
For a love that's pure, you can be sure
That love is worth the waiting
You'll be the one sent from above
'Till then I'll be waiting, praying
Knowing that you are the one
I know I've never met you, but I know
You're a promise I can hold on to
We belong, so please be strong
I'm waiting for you, too
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Backstory on the band: http://www.crossrhythms.co.uk/articles/music/Phat_Chance_Bryan_Nance_talks_about_purity_in_pop/33019/p1/
Friday, September 18, 2009
Waiting.
Playing the waiting game is a hard thing to do. There are many times in life when you have to wait. For example: waiting in line at Costco (so long), waiting for a call back from a job, or waiting for God to speak to you or show you something in your life. I find that impatience is in common with all of these, but very harmful with the latter. Being patient with God is a good thing and is very beneficial.
Let's take a look into a couple of verses:
The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. [Lamentations 3:25 ESV]
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. [Psalm 40:1]
Be still, and know that I am God... [Psalm 46:10]
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. [Psalm 27:14]
But as for me, I will watch expectantly for the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation. My God will hear me. [Micah 7:7]
Yet those who wait for the LORD will gain new strength; they will mount up on wings like eagles; they will run and not get tired; they will walk and not become weary. [Isaiah 40:31 NASB]
God is sovereign. He knows all: past, present, and future. He knows what your career will be, who you are going to marry, how many kids you will have, and when you will die. Be still. Be patient. Let God work in your life and don't do everything on your own.
For all you people out there who are looking for a significant other need to remember that you should wait for the Lord. It's not about finding the right person. It's about BEING the right person. You shouldn't rush into a relationship to only end quickly and find out that it's self-centered instead of Christ-centered. WAIT because God wants to use your singleness to build others (and yourself) up. BEING the right person doesn't happen overnight and it may take time. (I put this in bold because it applies to me)
The moral here kids...wait for the Lord because He is going to do great things in your life. Don't go out and try to figure out the world on your own because you are going to be unsuccessful at it. Pray and seek him with all your heart.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. [Matthew 6:33]
Let's take a look into a couple of verses:
The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. [Lamentations 3:25 ESV]
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. [Psalm 40:1]
Be still, and know that I am God... [Psalm 46:10]
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. [Psalm 27:14]
But as for me, I will watch expectantly for the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation. My God will hear me. [Micah 7:7]
Yet those who wait for the LORD will gain new strength; they will mount up on wings like eagles; they will run and not get tired; they will walk and not become weary. [Isaiah 40:31 NASB]
God is sovereign. He knows all: past, present, and future. He knows what your career will be, who you are going to marry, how many kids you will have, and when you will die. Be still. Be patient. Let God work in your life and don't do everything on your own.
For all you people out there who are looking for a significant other need to remember that you should wait for the Lord. It's not about finding the right person. It's about BEING the right person. You shouldn't rush into a relationship to only end quickly and find out that it's self-centered instead of Christ-centered. WAIT because God wants to use your singleness to build others (and yourself) up. BEING the right person doesn't happen overnight and it may take time. (I put this in bold because it applies to me)
The moral here kids...wait for the Lord because He is going to do great things in your life. Don't go out and try to figure out the world on your own because you are going to be unsuccessful at it. Pray and seek him with all your heart.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. [Matthew 6:33]
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
A Journal Entry. (6.18.09) - Tithing
For some odd reason I was thinking about tithing today. Why? I have no idea, but it reminded me of a journal entry and a real-life story that happened to my sister over the summer. It definitely changed the way I approached tithing.
Journal entry dated 6.18.09:
...Ate (Tagalog for "older sister") just called me. She had an awesome story to tell. Here goes: On behalf of her and Graham, she tithes 10% of their net income every Sunday at Church. One day, they both went to visit Elizabeth (Graham's [brother-in-law] sister) at a safehouse (that is run by a Christian organization). As part of her duty as a Christian to tithe, she donated $375 to the safehouse. So today she had told me that she had gotten a medical bill earlier this morning. Ava (my niece who was 2 months at the time of this entry) had to be admitted into the hospital for jaundice. They were tight with money and Ate didn't know how they were going to come up with enough to pay for it. The hospital bill came up to $700. She then called the hospital to ask if it was covered by insurance. The lady told her that it was already taken care of. Insurance DID pay for it, well most of it at least. The remaining bill was a whopping sum of $16!!! Hope and prayer came a long way. They also gave back to the Lord and they did it from the heart. God is gracious and he gave back to them. That family is very blessed. God works amazingly!
Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. [Luke 6:38]
Journal entry dated 6.18.09:
...Ate (Tagalog for "older sister") just called me. She had an awesome story to tell. Here goes: On behalf of her and Graham, she tithes 10% of their net income every Sunday at Church. One day, they both went to visit Elizabeth (Graham's [brother-in-law] sister) at a safehouse (that is run by a Christian organization). As part of her duty as a Christian to tithe, she donated $375 to the safehouse. So today she had told me that she had gotten a medical bill earlier this morning. Ava (my niece who was 2 months at the time of this entry) had to be admitted into the hospital for jaundice. They were tight with money and Ate didn't know how they were going to come up with enough to pay for it. The hospital bill came up to $700. She then called the hospital to ask if it was covered by insurance. The lady told her that it was already taken care of. Insurance DID pay for it, well most of it at least. The remaining bill was a whopping sum of $16!!! Hope and prayer came a long way. They also gave back to the Lord and they did it from the heart. God is gracious and he gave back to them. That family is very blessed. God works amazingly!
Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. [Luke 6:38]
Friday, September 11, 2009
Heaven Is The Face - Steven Curtis Chapman.
A truly beautiful song.
Lyrics:
Heaven is the face of a little girl
With dark brown eyes
That disappear when she smiles.
Heaven is the place
Where she calls my name
Says, “Daddy please come play with me for awhile.”
It’s far beyond anything I can conceive.
So God, You know, I’m trusting You until I see
Heaven in the face of my little girl,
Heaven in the face of my little girl.
Lyrics:
Heaven is the face of a little girl
With dark brown eyes
That disappear when she smiles.
Heaven is the place
Where she calls my name
Says, “Daddy please come play with me for awhile.”
God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more,
But God, You know, that this is what I’m aching for.
God, you know, I just can’t see beyond the door.
So right now…
Heaven is the sound of her breathing deep,
Lying on my chest, falling fast asleep while I sing.
And Heaven is the weight of her in my arms,
Being there to keep her safe from harm while she dreams
And God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more,
But God, You know, that this is what I’m longing for
God, you know, I just can’t see beyond the door.
But in my mind’s eye I can see a place
Where Your glory fills every empty space.
All the cancer is gone,
Every mouth is fed,
And there’s no one left in the orphans’ bed.
Every lonely heart finds their one true love,
And there’s no more goodbye,
And no more not enough,
And there’s no more enemy (no more).
Heaven is a sweet, maple syrup kiss
And a thousand other little things I miss with her gone.
Heaven is the place where she takes my hand
And leads me to You,
And we both run into Your arms.
It’s far beyond anything I can conceive.
So God, You know, I’m trusting You until I see
Heaven in the face of my little girl,
Heaven in the face of my little girl.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Let It Go - Tenth Avenue North.
This song has been tugging at the heartstrings for a while and has been in my head for about a week. I'll let the lyrics speak for itself:
I've been holding on so tight
Look at these knuckles they've gone white
From fighting for who I want to be
I'm just trying to find security
You say let it go
You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be everything I need
You say if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go
Well it's hard enough to hear
Harder still to move beyond this fear
We know there's nothing I can bring
So tell me what do you want from me?
You say let it go
You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be everything I need
You say if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go
What do I love what do I hate
What will I lose what will I gain
How do I save my soul?
What if I bend what if I break
What will it cost what will it take
For you to save my soul
You say let it go
You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be everything I need
You say if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go
Behind the Song (ala jesusfreakhideout.com):
“The Bible says some really strange things and one of those things is when Jesus basically appeals to the people and he says, ‘You don’t want to lose your life, do you? Well lose it and then you’ll find it.’ It’s a very strange sort of argument that Jesus makes, but ‘Let It Go’ is a song about struggling to let go of being the captain of my own ship, of my own faith, which I think we all struggle with. A line in the chorus says, ‘Life is waiting for the ones who lose control.’ It’s a call to say, ‘Man, if only I would really trust God, I would have far fewer aneurisms and stress than I put on myself.’” - Mike Donehey (Tenth Avenue North)
Read Matthew 8:18-22 and see if these words are similar. In my MacArthur Study Bible (NASB), the commentary for verse 22 states, "Let the world (spiritually dead) take care of mundane things." Powerful stuff in my eyes
I've been holding on so tight
Look at these knuckles they've gone white
From fighting for who I want to be
I'm just trying to find security
You say let it go
You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be everything I need
You say if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go
Well it's hard enough to hear
Harder still to move beyond this fear
We know there's nothing I can bring
So tell me what do you want from me?
You say let it go
You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be everything I need
You say if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go
What do I love what do I hate
What will I lose what will I gain
How do I save my soul?
What if I bend what if I break
What will it cost what will it take
For you to save my soul
You say let it go
You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be everything I need
You say if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go
Behind the Song (ala jesusfreakhideout.com):
“The Bible says some really strange things and one of those things is when Jesus basically appeals to the people and he says, ‘You don’t want to lose your life, do you? Well lose it and then you’ll find it.’ It’s a very strange sort of argument that Jesus makes, but ‘Let It Go’ is a song about struggling to let go of being the captain of my own ship, of my own faith, which I think we all struggle with. A line in the chorus says, ‘Life is waiting for the ones who lose control.’ It’s a call to say, ‘Man, if only I would really trust God, I would have far fewer aneurisms and stress than I put on myself.’” - Mike Donehey (Tenth Avenue North)
Read Matthew 8:18-22 and see if these words are similar. In my MacArthur Study Bible (NASB), the commentary for verse 22 states, "Let the world (spiritually dead) take care of mundane things." Powerful stuff in my eyes
Monday, September 7, 2009
Goodbyes and Apologies.
Yesterday was my last day at home. I'm back in Toronto now. For the most part, settled in. Only one problem, I forgot my MacBook charger at home...FAIL!!! So I'm gonna have to ask a couple of peeps to see if I can use their charger. Good thing I know a couple of people.
I said goodbyes to most of the people I wanted to, although some weren't proper. I finally got the chance to meet up with some of the kids I was hanging out with at Junior High summer camp. It was alot of fun. I even said hello to people that I thought disliked me. I guess not.
To the people I didn't say goodbye to, my apologies. I probably didn't even tell you I was leaving or we didn't have time to meet up. I'm sorry.
I also am writing this to apologize to those I did wrong to or hurt over the course of the summer. You probably won't be reading this anyways, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being a jerk and I'm sorry for speaking up when I wasn't supposed to. I did acts selfishly instead of selflessly.
This summer, I ended relationships, but also started some new ones. I even rekindled some friendships that were slipping away.
It's all in the Lord's time. Trust Him. Completely. You won't be disappointed.
Goodbyes are hard. Especially when you have to say it to someone you love.
I said goodbyes to most of the people I wanted to, although some weren't proper. I finally got the chance to meet up with some of the kids I was hanging out with at Junior High summer camp. It was alot of fun. I even said hello to people that I thought disliked me. I guess not.
To the people I didn't say goodbye to, my apologies. I probably didn't even tell you I was leaving or we didn't have time to meet up. I'm sorry.
I also am writing this to apologize to those I did wrong to or hurt over the course of the summer. You probably won't be reading this anyways, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being a jerk and I'm sorry for speaking up when I wasn't supposed to. I did acts selfishly instead of selflessly.
This summer, I ended relationships, but also started some new ones. I even rekindled some friendships that were slipping away.
It's all in the Lord's time. Trust Him. Completely. You won't be disappointed.
Goodbyes are hard. Especially when you have to say it to someone you love.
Friday, September 4, 2009
A Journal Entry. (9.2.09) - Direction
Taken from my spiritual journal:
One thing that I've been asking God for this summer is direction. Direction to where I want God wants me to go in life. This summer raised questions and uncertainties in my life like school, relationships, and work. I feel today the Lord reassured me that he has a plan for me and that everything is under His control. Not mine. Three different passages from three different sources were shown to me today:
The first was shown to me by my friend Simon. Matthew 6:25-34.The passage sums up to say, "Do not worry. You mean SO MUCH to God. He WILL provide for you." I looked at it thinking okay, God will provide me with finances, a loving wife (Hey I'm only 19, but yeah I think about it), and food and shelter.
The next verse was sent to me through a Twitter text message (follow @ DailyVerseTweet for Bible verses on your Twitter). The verse of the day was Numbers 23:19. I put that verse into my own words: God doesn't lie. Sure, God may delay a promise, but He will still keep it to the very end. God reveals truth through His Word. Does it not say in the Bible that He WILL provide? I don't know when, how much, or what, but I do know it will happen. I have yet to see or hear of a broken promise from God.
The last verse was BibleGateway's Verse of the Day for September 3rd (I wrote my journal past midnight which is why I got the September 3rd verse). It was Isaiah 48:17. The Lord will lead me to where He wants me to go. He will lead me to a job, a woman fit for my standards, and He will give me the necessities needed for daily living.
How do I know that? It says so in the Bible. The Bible is His Word and His Word is the truth. As our Father, God cares for us so much. He WILL provide in ways more than you think. Maybe you're just oblivious to it. Maybe my future wife is already a friend of mine. I don't know, but God does.
Where does it say in the Bible that God cares for us? Many places, but here are a few that stand out: John 3:16, 1 Peter 5:7, Luke 12:6-7.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Spiritual Conversations.
I have found that sharing your faith with another person, believer or non-believer feels really good. I had a talk with a good friend just a couple minutes ago and we both were expressing our faith through music played on the guitar, through scripture verses that came up in our heads, and even the things that the Lord has been showing us this summer. I love to talk about something that I love and I think my friend might actually get in trouble because he stayed out past what he told his parents he would :/. Anyways...God is awesome and (as David Crowder*Band says) "We'll shout it out loud from the rooftops. We won't be quiet. We've fallen for You hard and we can't stop. We won't deny it."
Speak to one another with psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
[Ephesians 5:19-20]
Speak to one another with psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
[Ephesians 5:19-20]
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Desire to Sin or Sinful Desires?
a quote I saw at church a while ago...
"People sin because they want something, and they're afraid that being good won't get it for them." - Barbara Brown Taylor
...reminded me of a bible verse:
What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God.
[James 4:1-3]
"People sin because they want something, and they're afraid that being good won't get it for them." - Barbara Brown Taylor
...reminded me of a bible verse:
What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God.
[James 4:1-3]
You Are Everything - Phil Wickham.
I was up til 4AM listening to worship music again. I stumbled across such a beautiful song by Phil Wickham entitled "You Are Everything." Basically the title speaks for itself. Phil Wickham is an awesome singer and his love for Christ speaks through this song.
Jesus, You're my everything
My heart beats for You
Filled with power and mystery
Lord, I thirst for You
You are everything
You are everything
Lord, You are beautiful
Awesome and wonderful
I give You all of my life
Lord, You're the song I sing
Perfect in everything
I give You all of my life
For You are everything
You're the stone I rest upon
I find peace in You
I love You Lord with all my heart
I place my hope in You
For You are everything
You are everything
Jesus, You're my everything
My heart beats for You
Filled with power and mystery
Lord, I thirst for You
You are everything
You are everything
Lord, You are beautiful
Awesome and wonderful
I give You all of my life
Lord, You're the song I sing
Perfect in everything
I give You all of my life
For You are everything
You're the stone I rest upon
I find peace in You
I love You Lord with all my heart
I place my hope in You
For You are everything
You are everything
Sunday, August 30, 2009
A Closer Summer.
We're here in Fayetteville, NC packing for our 4-5 hour road trip back home. I couldn't have asked for a better trip. Sure, it had ups and downs. Nothing out there is perfect, but I can say that I can't ask for a better family.
This trip was the first family trip we've had since 2006. It felt really good living under the same roof once again as a whole. Great way to end the summer as we go back to the daily grind of work and school.
I could feel this family getting closer and closer to the Lord as our trip went on. We did bible studies, went to a Bible-themed theme park, and we even prayed together! Two things I love the most in the world, the Lord and family, came together under one roof.
Even with all of the things that happened in the beginning of the summer, it is safe to say that this is the best summer I've ever had.
How good and pleasant it is when brothers live together in unity!
[Psalm 133:1]
This trip was the first family trip we've had since 2006. It felt really good living under the same roof once again as a whole. Great way to end the summer as we go back to the daily grind of work and school.
I could feel this family getting closer and closer to the Lord as our trip went on. We did bible studies, went to a Bible-themed theme park, and we even prayed together! Two things I love the most in the world, the Lord and family, came together under one roof.
Even with all of the things that happened in the beginning of the summer, it is safe to say that this is the best summer I've ever had.
How good and pleasant it is when brothers live together in unity!
[Psalm 133:1]
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Your Love Is Strong - Jon Foreman.
So here I am in the beautiful city of Orlando, FL. Everyone's asleep and I'm up listening to some praise and worship music. I came across a song and the lyrics just spoke out to me. Like really, this song speaks out to me on so many levels. Here it is. Jon Foreman - Your Love Is Strong:
Heavenly Father
You always amaze me
Let your kingdom come
In my world and in my life
You give me the food I need
To live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive
The people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one
I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place
I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day
So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
The kingdom of the heavens
Is now advancing
Invade my heart
Invade this broken town
The kingdom of the heavens
Is buried treasure
Will you sell yourself
To buy the one you've found?
Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Our God in heaven
Hallowed be
Thy name above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us weary sinners
Lead us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. [1 Peter 5:7]
....I want to cover this song ASAP
Heavenly Father
You always amaze me
Let your kingdom come
In my world and in my life
You give me the food I need
To live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive
The people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one
I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place
I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day
So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
The kingdom of the heavens
Is now advancing
Invade my heart
Invade this broken town
The kingdom of the heavens
Is buried treasure
Will you sell yourself
To buy the one you've found?
Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Our God in heaven
Hallowed be
Thy name above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us weary sinners
Lead us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. [1 Peter 5:7]
....I want to cover this song ASAP
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Faithfulness brings true riches.
Taken from my daily scripture book:
"He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much; and he who is unrighteous in very little thing is unrighteous also in much. Therefore if you have not been faithful in the use of unrighteousness wealth, who will entrust the true riches to you?" - Luke 16:10-11
Your character is tested in the small choices you make. Cheating in a little thing is cut out of the same piece of cloth as cheating in a big way. Just as a small drop of dye will color even a large glass of clear water, a small act of deception colors your whole character. God promises that when you are honest and faithful in small ways, he will give you more and greater opportunities to do good.
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In my McArthur Study Bible, it referenced Matthew 25:21 for verse 10: His master replied, 'Well done good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share you master's happiness!'
In verse 11, it talks about the "true" riches. This doesn't mean money or power. Think heavenly treasures. Here' what the Gospel of Matthew says in chapter 6, verses 19-21, 24: "Do not store up for yourself treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also...No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money." In these verses, the bible clearly states that money is an earthly treasure, and you can't love both. God will provide [2 Corinthians 9:6-15]
How do I store up heavenly treasures you ask? Devote time to the Lord and submit all areas of your life to God.
"He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much; and he who is unrighteous in very little thing is unrighteous also in much. Therefore if you have not been faithful in the use of unrighteousness wealth, who will entrust the true riches to you?" - Luke 16:10-11
Your character is tested in the small choices you make. Cheating in a little thing is cut out of the same piece of cloth as cheating in a big way. Just as a small drop of dye will color even a large glass of clear water, a small act of deception colors your whole character. God promises that when you are honest and faithful in small ways, he will give you more and greater opportunities to do good.
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In my McArthur Study Bible, it referenced Matthew 25:21 for verse 10: His master replied, 'Well done good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share you master's happiness!'
In verse 11, it talks about the "true" riches. This doesn't mean money or power. Think heavenly treasures. Here' what the Gospel of Matthew says in chapter 6, verses 19-21, 24: "Do not store up for yourself treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also...No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money." In these verses, the bible clearly states that money is an earthly treasure, and you can't love both. God will provide [2 Corinthians 9:6-15]
How do I store up heavenly treasures you ask? Devote time to the Lord and submit all areas of your life to God.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
The Beautiful Letdown - Switchfoot.
So I was on Jesusfreakhideout.com and I was looking up Switchfoot lyrics. A cool thing about that website is that it shows the background to the song lyrics quoted by the artist. I found one that caught my eye and is pretty relevant to me. The song is by Switchfoot and the song is The Beautful Letdown. Here is what the lead singer/songwriter (Jon Foreman) had to say about the song:
"Physics tells us that everything on this planet will fail us eventually. Trust someone, fall in love: your scars will tell the same story. Entropy, pain, beauty, love, hope... mix them together and call it living. The choice that remains is where we go to find meaning and truth. The biggest failures and disappointments in my life have led me to look beyond what money or power or friends can buy. When you’re face down at the very bottom of who you are, and there is no formality or pretense to cling to, all your masks fall off. In this broken place, our lives can be seen for what they are, no more no less; we are ourselves. The question is this: What happens after the twin towers in our lives fall? Do we become bitter and hateful or does redemption come into focus? I’ve been on both sides...only one is beautiful."
And the lyrics:
It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone, unknown and hurt.
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do.
In a world full of bitter pain
And bitter doubt
I was trying so hard to fit in,
Until I found out
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong.
It was a beautiful letdown
When You found me here
And for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free.
We're still chasing our tails
And the rising sun
And our dark water planet
Still spins in a race
Where no one wins
And no one's one.
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I'm gonna set sight
and set sail for the kingdom come.
Your kingdom come.
Won't you let me down!
Let my foolish pride forever let me down.
Easy living, you're not much like your name
Easy dying, you look just about the same.
Would you please take me off your list?
Easy living, please come on and let me down.
What a beautiful letdown
painfully uncool
the church of the drop outs, the losers,
the sinners, the failures, and the fools.
What a beautiful letdown
are we salt in the wound?
Let us sing one true tune.
...Think about it
P.S. This CD is one of my absolute favorites!!!
"Physics tells us that everything on this planet will fail us eventually. Trust someone, fall in love: your scars will tell the same story. Entropy, pain, beauty, love, hope... mix them together and call it living. The choice that remains is where we go to find meaning and truth. The biggest failures and disappointments in my life have led me to look beyond what money or power or friends can buy. When you’re face down at the very bottom of who you are, and there is no formality or pretense to cling to, all your masks fall off. In this broken place, our lives can be seen for what they are, no more no less; we are ourselves. The question is this: What happens after the twin towers in our lives fall? Do we become bitter and hateful or does redemption come into focus? I’ve been on both sides...only one is beautiful."
And the lyrics:
It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone, unknown and hurt.
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do.
In a world full of bitter pain
And bitter doubt
I was trying so hard to fit in,
Until I found out
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong.
It was a beautiful letdown
When You found me here
And for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free.
We're still chasing our tails
And the rising sun
And our dark water planet
Still spins in a race
Where no one wins
And no one's one.
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I'm gonna set sight
and set sail for the kingdom come.
Your kingdom come.
Won't you let me down!
Let my foolish pride forever let me down.
Easy living, you're not much like your name
Easy dying, you look just about the same.
Would you please take me off your list?
Easy living, please come on and let me down.
What a beautiful letdown
painfully uncool
the church of the drop outs, the losers,
the sinners, the failures, and the fools.
What a beautiful letdown
are we salt in the wound?
Let us sing one true tune.
...Think about it
P.S. This CD is one of my absolute favorites!!!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
God has a purpose for suffering
"Number one, God uses suffering to reveal our spiritual condition...our spiritual character. God uses suffering to reveal our spiritual character. You really do not know the truth about someone spiritually when everything is going well, right? It doesn't surface because basically they appear to be at peace and happy and with a measure of joy and satisfaction and fulfillment in life because superficially and on the surface everything is okay. Then when things begin to go wrong, reality begins to surface as to their spiritual condition. And the worse things get, the more their spiritual character is un-bared. When you strip away the blessings, and you strip away the successes and you strip away the prosperity and you strip away the health and you begin to peel it all back, then you're going to find out what somebody is really made of spiritually."
An excerpt from How God uses Suffering - Part 1 by John MacArthur
An excerpt from How God uses Suffering - Part 1 by John MacArthur
Monday, June 15, 2009
Three of the devil's weapons
The devil has many ways to trick us and get into our heads to make things go his way and against God's.
Some of his tactics are used when we are most vulnerable - when we feel saddened or are experiencing pain or grief. His "3 Ds" as I like to call them are distraction, disillusionment, and discouragement.
Distraction. The world has many things out there that are pleasing to the eye. But ask yourself if they are pleasing to God. It's the devil's way of distracting you from what you should be doing.
Disillusionment. Being oblivious is the devil's way of covering up your sins, acting like there's nothing wrong with what you just did. You think everything's fine, when in reality, things are crappy. God appreciates your honesty when coming clean to things...hopefully sooner rather than later.
Discouragement. It's easy to get discouraged over something. You may have done wrong to hurt someone or something. The feeling of guilt is going to take over your body. You must then ask for forgiveness and ask the Lord to give you strength whenever you are feeling weak. Move on!
Note: The devil has many more ways to get in our heads than these "3 Ds." Be aware that he isn't limited to just these.
Some of his tactics are used when we are most vulnerable - when we feel saddened or are experiencing pain or grief. His "3 Ds" as I like to call them are distraction, disillusionment, and discouragement.
Distraction. The world has many things out there that are pleasing to the eye. But ask yourself if they are pleasing to God. It's the devil's way of distracting you from what you should be doing.
Disillusionment. Being oblivious is the devil's way of covering up your sins, acting like there's nothing wrong with what you just did. You think everything's fine, when in reality, things are crappy. God appreciates your honesty when coming clean to things...hopefully sooner rather than later.
Discouragement. It's easy to get discouraged over something. You may have done wrong to hurt someone or something. The feeling of guilt is going to take over your body. You must then ask for forgiveness and ask the Lord to give you strength whenever you are feeling weak. Move on!
Note: The devil has many more ways to get in our heads than these "3 Ds." Be aware that he isn't limited to just these.
(How do) I know God is real.
Sometimes, we become too complacent with many things (school, work, etc.). I became complacent towards the Lord. I only looked to him with all my heart whenever I needed him the most and then pretty much forgot about him after that. Then, the moment I do something against his word, he changes something in my life. It's just the way the Lord works to show that he is all powerful and to teach you a lesson. I admit that I am weak. I let my pride (thinking I could get by on my own when I got back from school) and my emotions get the best of me, and I am most certainly paying for it. [Proverbs 16:5]
In [Hosea 11:4], the Israelites were stuck in the desert with nothing to eat. The Lord cared for them because he loves them, and provided them with food to eat. But then the Israelites were oblivious that it was God that had helped them out. The Lord was forgotten once they became satisfied [Hosea 13:4-6]. The Lord became angry with them and took their king away [Hosea 13:11].
King Solomon also showed his disrespect towards the Lord by disobeying his command [1 Kings 11:1-13]. Solomon held his love with 700 wives from different nations. The Lord didn't want him to do this because they would turn his heart towards other gods. So as he grew older, he wasn't fully devoted to God anymore. Thus, he became angry with Solomon because his heart was in the wrong place. Solomon didn't keep God's command...so guess what the Lord did next? He told Solomon that his kingdom will be ripped away from him, but only being left with one tribe [1 Kings 11:13]. But the thing is, he was going to do this to Solomon's son. Not Solomon. But imagine how that must feel. Knowing that your child will be given less than what you had because of a selfish move that you made.
So what does this have to do whether God is real or not. Well it just shows the Lord's almighty power. He can take anything away from you in an instant; the moment you disobey his command. God IS real and you should be living in fear of what he can do to your life. This isn't some spiritual high that I'm experiencing because of the troubles I'm facing in my life. It's the fear of the Lord that is now fueling my life.
"Who is wise? He will realize these things. Who is discerning? He will understand them. The ways of the Lord are right; the righteous walk in them, but the rebellious stumble in them." - Hosea 14:9
"Through love and faithfulness sin is atoned for; through fear of the Lord a man avoids evil." - Proverbs 16:6
In [Hosea 11:4], the Israelites were stuck in the desert with nothing to eat. The Lord cared for them because he loves them, and provided them with food to eat. But then the Israelites were oblivious that it was God that had helped them out. The Lord was forgotten once they became satisfied [Hosea 13:4-6]. The Lord became angry with them and took their king away [Hosea 13:11].
King Solomon also showed his disrespect towards the Lord by disobeying his command [1 Kings 11:1-13]. Solomon held his love with 700 wives from different nations. The Lord didn't want him to do this because they would turn his heart towards other gods. So as he grew older, he wasn't fully devoted to God anymore. Thus, he became angry with Solomon because his heart was in the wrong place. Solomon didn't keep God's command...so guess what the Lord did next? He told Solomon that his kingdom will be ripped away from him, but only being left with one tribe [1 Kings 11:13]. But the thing is, he was going to do this to Solomon's son. Not Solomon. But imagine how that must feel. Knowing that your child will be given less than what you had because of a selfish move that you made.
So what does this have to do whether God is real or not. Well it just shows the Lord's almighty power. He can take anything away from you in an instant; the moment you disobey his command. God IS real and you should be living in fear of what he can do to your life. This isn't some spiritual high that I'm experiencing because of the troubles I'm facing in my life. It's the fear of the Lord that is now fueling my life.
"Who is wise? He will realize these things. Who is discerning? He will understand them. The ways of the Lord are right; the righteous walk in them, but the rebellious stumble in them." - Hosea 14:9
"Through love and faithfulness sin is atoned for; through fear of the Lord a man avoids evil." - Proverbs 16:6
Saturday, May 9, 2009
The 4 P's
Perseverance.Patience.Persistent Prayer
In my life, the next couple weeks are going to be tricky. The 4 P's are going to be something I need to be practicing constantly. No matter what happens, I have to persevere, be patient, and pray for anything and everything.
Perseverance. In James 5:10-11, it says that you should be patient in times of suffering. If you persevere, the Lord will reward you greatly. This passage references Job and his countless sufferings. My life in nowhere near compared to Job's, but in any suffering, I can use him as a model to get through anything. Through perseverance, you can develop maturity. James 1:2-4 states that even through trials, you should persevere so that you can be mature not lacking any qualities.
Patience. Very hard to practice, but if you are, many great things can come out of it. It's hard waiting for something that you know is coming, but you can't have it just yet (i.e. coming home from college). Maybe it's God's way of telling you that you need to wait it out so that he can build you up to something greater. The only way to find that out is if you try. "The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him." - Lamentations 3:25 (ESV). Your time is not always God's time. Psalm 40:1 says that as long as you wait for the Lord, he will listen to you. This is where prayer comes into play.
Persistent Prayer. In the Bible, there are many scripture passages that talk about prayer, but I feel that Luke 18:1-8 applies well to the 4 P's. In this passage, Jesus is talking to the disciples about a widow who kept going to a judge asking for a plea. After a while, the judge got tired of her constant begging and nagging, so he finally granted her the plea that she wanted. At the end of the parable, Jesus tells his disciples that God will never put you off. He will see to it that you get justice for being persistent (even in prayer).
So as you can see, the 4 P's are very tough to follow. It's easier said than done, but you can never know what you can get out of it until you try.
In my life, the next couple weeks are going to be tricky. The 4 P's are going to be something I need to be practicing constantly. No matter what happens, I have to persevere, be patient, and pray for anything and everything.
Perseverance. In James 5:10-11, it says that you should be patient in times of suffering. If you persevere, the Lord will reward you greatly. This passage references Job and his countless sufferings. My life in nowhere near compared to Job's, but in any suffering, I can use him as a model to get through anything. Through perseverance, you can develop maturity. James 1:2-4 states that even through trials, you should persevere so that you can be mature not lacking any qualities.
Patience. Very hard to practice, but if you are, many great things can come out of it. It's hard waiting for something that you know is coming, but you can't have it just yet (i.e. coming home from college). Maybe it's God's way of telling you that you need to wait it out so that he can build you up to something greater. The only way to find that out is if you try. "The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him." - Lamentations 3:25 (ESV). Your time is not always God's time. Psalm 40:1 says that as long as you wait for the Lord, he will listen to you. This is where prayer comes into play.
Persistent Prayer. In the Bible, there are many scripture passages that talk about prayer, but I feel that Luke 18:1-8 applies well to the 4 P's. In this passage, Jesus is talking to the disciples about a widow who kept going to a judge asking for a plea. After a while, the judge got tired of her constant begging and nagging, so he finally granted her the plea that she wanted. At the end of the parable, Jesus tells his disciples that God will never put you off. He will see to it that you get justice for being persistent (even in prayer).
So as you can see, the 4 P's are very tough to follow. It's easier said than done, but you can never know what you can get out of it until you try.
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