Here I am sitting at the airport waiting for my flight. I see planes coming and going. I hear flights changing gate numbers.
Times change. Seasons change. Looks change. Clothes (should) change. Wants and desires change. Attitudes change. Many others things change, but that would take more time listing and it would be redundant.
It's only been 5 days into 2010 and I feel like a lot has changed. Things between a former flame and I are done. I'll leave it at that. But God steps in for a reason. He shakes up things in your life to see if your faith is strong and to see if you keep focus on Him in the tough times. Yeah, it sucks, but ultimately God knows best. It's time to really let go now.
I've started reading My Utmost For His Highest and it's funny how ever since I started reading it, it mentions waiting. It's something I must do. God is now in control and I think it's time for Him to be the author of the rest of my life. I'm going to stop wrestling over the pen and hand it over to Him.
Usually, something like this would have me bawling my eyes out and put me in a depressed and catatonic (at times) state. Not this time. I've changed. God has given me strength to get through things emotionally and He has assured me multiple times that He alone is in control and for me to let go and trust Him. I like this feeling. It's gonna take a lot to get me out of this state because I have God on my side. It's virtually impossible actually. I'm good. I just have to let Him keep changing me. Change is very good. I'm content.
Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. [Philippians 4:11]
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